This blog hasn't been the easiest for me to keep up. For the most part, there hasn't been anything overly exciting to share; and that is still the case as we plow through collecting more paperwork, getting medicals, tests, etc.
I sometimes still think about abandoning this whole blog altogether. This journey has been truly an emotional rollarcoaster, and though I'd love to take any readers along for the ride 'up', most of the time (to me anyways) it has been a downward ride.
For the most part I am a positive person, and I do believe that our adoption process is out of our hands - in the control of a higher power. It's the down times that I don't always care to share, maybe as a self-protection mechanism like if I don't think about it, blog about it, it may not be true...or just simply the fact that I don't want to think about the negatives...
or is it reality I have trouble facing?
If you are not in the adoption world and have somehow landed here and are reading, these 'negatives' really vary and come up rather unexpectedly at times.
changes by Ethio government that are put into effect immediately, requiring changes to paperwork, different regulations, etc
medical limitations to adoptive parents
reduction of adoptions allowed
As my brain sifts such information I weave threads of reminders through them;
the only way I can keep positive.
He is in control
He is sovereign
His heart is for the orphan
And I try to grasp a bit of reality - that this adoption may not happen - and believe it.
For the time being I'll hang on to this blog
and to our dream.
Thanks for hanging on with me.
and please pray with me.