06 August 2011

acceptance & hope

I realize my lack of posts may leave some wondering. I guess I am in the same place too. I hesitate to write when there is nothing 'positive' to write about. I don't want our journey to be a negative one - or to be remembered that way. So I avoid altogether. (sometimes is a pattern in my life - avoidance).

Truthfully though, we are in a somewhat contented, but more so, accepted, place of waiting. We know that we are still a ways off before hearing any possible referral news for us. For this reason, we've also been avoiding updating documents - even though our agency would like us to - I'm trying to be sensible & realistic about it.

My heart is filled with joy when I hear of others' referrals and court passing and coming home. Though it leaves me with longing, I'm thankful that those children will be loved in their forever home, and it gives me hope. God can still move mountains and make this happen for us. Even if we have to wait.