20 September 2010

waiting hearts

And another month passes by. It's been a quiet month for referrals - too quiet for my waiting heart.

Lately, Kazia has been asking if we can adopt. We hadn't formally told her anything, and I debated on it now as she's not gifted with patience. But I did tell her. And as I expected, she was thrilled; I saw that fast beating heart smile. At night in bed she pours over the book on Ethiopia I bought used from the library.

Dare I think about this, but I do hope that things will work out - I'd hate for her precious heart to be crushed too.

And this waiting heart of mine grows weary...impatient.

How long?


elsie hiebert said...

My heart is weary along with yours. My kids have been praying for over 2 years now - ever since we started the process. They were older and we couldn't hide it from them since they had to talk with the adoption practitioner. They lost their excitement after the failed Ghana program and I don't blame them. We all try to guard our hearts. I'm really hoping that some people will receive their referals this week.

Gwen said...

Aw, Deborah, this is a tough row to hoe, isn't it? :( So many waiting kids, so many waiting families, and so much red tape. The wait is heartbreaking, and it's even more difficult for kids. I think my kids had totally given up on the idea of EVER having siblings from Ethiopia. It's a long, tough wait.... Hang in there. :)

Sharla said...

The waiting is so hard. It's frustrating too when you know that there are kids who are waiting for families. As someone who is on the other side of the wait, I can only tell you with certainty that every millisecond of the wait was more than worth it!

Lisa said...

I wish you didn't have to wait :( Its so not fair to all the waiting mama's arms out there, and those little ones who long to be held by their mama's.

Praying, praying, praying.